Today (Thursday, August 29th, 2019) it has been 15 weeks since my cat "Marmalade" departed this World.
As many here on the forum know, if you have read some of our story, "Marmalade" brought me back to faith, after I had been an atheist or agnostic for over 50 years. I witnessed him survive the odds countless times, when he shouldn't have. And when I was being abandoned by everyone, and really needed a friend, "Marmalade's" path was crossed with mine by a higher power. I am certain of it. Without "Marmalade's" presence, I would not have survived the last several, very difficult years. I owe him my life many times over.
I just wrote this little prayer below in honor of my lost love "Marmalade." Each time that I feel an emotion or feeling that is "negative", I try and replace it with one that is "positive." So I wrote this prayer below, to try and remind myself of what I should be feeling instead, if I truly want to heal and recover. The goal is to give oneself ongoing, positive affirmations.
I hope some of you find comfort in it. Even if you are not spiritual.
Dear Merciful God,
Please take my "grief" from me and replace it with feelings of only "gratitude"
For my path being crossed with that of my lost loved one, and our being given the opportunity to get to know one another.
Please take my "sadness" away from me and replace it with feelings of being "blessed"
For the time that was allotted to my lost beloved and I, to be together.
Please take my "guilt" from me and replace it with feeling "humbled"
For having known such great and unconditional love in my lifetime.
Please take my "depression" away and replace it with feelings of "joy & happiness"
For all the smiles & laughter that my lost love provided me with, during the time that we were together.
Please take my "anxiety & anguish" away from me and replace them with feelings of "inner peace"
For my lost loved one having enriched my life so, so fully, while they were present.
Please take my "loneliness" away and replace it with feelings of deep "contentment"
For all the days and nights that I knew real companionship with my lost beloved.
Please take away my "regrets" and replace them with feelings of "bravery & courage"
To be able to face and endure my loss, and allow myself to heal and recover.
Please forgive me for needing help to remember that which is so evident above.
Thank you for showing me such great mercy through these dark & difficult times.