Been thinking of you today. Hope you made it through okay...though what exactly is ok? I don't even know anymore.
Since Dali's passing was such a surprise, I wonder if you often feel like I do - like is it real?!!! I still find myself hoping I'll see my Fonzie in our yard. I truly look for him out my windows whenever I can.
I think ALL the time "I can't believe it."
With each Sunday I dread 1pm because I know I will never forget the minutes from 1-106 when he left me. I hate the whole day, but that time my whole body shakes.
Then the reality comes crashing down and I can't divert my brain from those awful moments when I held my dying baby in my arms.
I am so sorry about your family not talking about her anymore. My almost 4yo daughter is the only one in my life who does! My husband is afraid I will lose it upon mentioning Fonzie, so he just doesn't. The rest of my family (whom I'm very close to and who saw him constantly) just doesn't talk about him at all unless they are telling me to move on. My mother said it's morbid keeping his ashes and his things. Everyone wants me to get rid of it all. I will never do that. And I know you will always hold Dali near to you.
I will love and miss you forever, My Fonzie Bear...