Hi Gracie's Mommy,
I am so sorry that you too are going through this overwhelming grief after saying goodbye to your precious Gracie. It really is tough to cope with.
You asked if the constant pain ever goes away. Well, my story is....I lost my gorgeous beagle, Bella, 9 1/2 months ago and the pain is still with me. I grieve for her every single day, but I would describe it as different than in the early days. I miss her with every part of me and would give anything to be able to bring her home. I still cry for her on occasions, but I have a level of acceptance now. I think the "rawness" of the grief is slowly, very slowly, starting to ease, but the emptiness in my heart will remain forever.
As I said, I still cry for her, but not as constantly and inconsolably as I did at the beginning. Granted, I can get myself to tears very quickly, much more quickly than before I said goodbye to her, just with a small thought, or seeing something of hers or even hearing a relevant song, but I can regain my composure more quickly now and sometimes I can even manage to laugh at a funny memory of her through my tears. The photos and memories are bringing me more smiles than tears now. I will miss my precious girl until I am with her again and I will love her forever, but gradually I think I will begin to adjust to my "new normal". In reality though, I never want to feel "totally ok" again. The grief that I feel is a way to honour what a special girl she was. I just want to be a little more like the "old me".
I think there will still be many, many "bad days", but I try to focus on my immense feelings of gratitude on those tougher days. I was so privileged to be Bella's Mummy, and you were so privileged to be Gracie's Mommy. Hold those thoughts in your heart....I find they help me. I hope they help you too.