Thanks everyone. Leigh - I kiss Cooper's blankie and tell him goodnight every night since he's been gone. And I don't blame anyone for wanting to clone their pet. You become so desperate to have them back, you'd try anything, even though they wouldn't be the same.
Judy - I saw a counselor for a month. It did help but after a while, I was just saying the same things every week.
When we first lost him, I made sure to let my grief out as I usually hold everything in. But the last month or so, I think I hold it in more. I don't tell my husband how I feel anymore. I've just been going through it alone. i don't know why. I know he feels the same. I just can't say these things out loud anymore. I love my dogs so much. Rudy and Dori are great and so much fun. But Cooper was so special. No matter how much I love them, it's not the same. Those feelings are gone. That's so sad for me. I so badly want to feel those feelings again, even if for a moment, but I can't summon them up. They're just gone, like my baby.