THANK YOU SO MUCH for all your kind responses after my 2 first posts on this forum. For those of you who don't know my story, I lost a female siberian husky 3 years ago in a very traumatic way: we had adopted her at 4 years old and 18 months later she seemed in great health, full of energy, but she suddenly passed away, probably from a heart attack or a ruptured aneurysm.
Guilt has followed me all these years. 3 months before she passed away, we changed her food from dry food to home cooked food. Fanta and my male husky Tyrion loved the new food. Our goal was to give the healthiest food so our dogs could live a very long life. As a teenager, my wife had a husky who lived 18 years! And her parents fed her home cooked food. So we went online, went to different websites to know the right amount of meat, vegetables and cereals, etc, to put in their meals. It took us hours each week to prepare their meals, but it seemed worth it: not only did the dogs love the food (it made them literally nuts!), but they also digested it much better than dry food.
After my sweet, amazing Fanta died, we went to our vet and asked him what might have been the cause of her death and we had Tyrion do all kinds of tests to make sure he was healthy. The vet kept saying: "you are absolutely NOT responsible for what happened to Fanta." But then, Tyrion's blood test results came back showing an iron deficiency. The vet said the food we gave them might have lacked meat. The proportion of meat might not have been high enough. We were giving the amount of meat that was recommended online (even a little more) but it probably was not enough. So we asked if that might have contributed to Fanta's heart attack or ruptured aneurysm, and he said "that might have".
Since then, I've been wondering: "has it played a role ?" "Could we have prevented Fanta's death by asking a professional to tell us the best proportions of meat, cereals and vegetables to put in their meals?"
I can't help but feel guilty even if I didn't find any clear link between lack of iron and ruptured aneurysm online, even if the cause might have been completely unrelated to her food, and even if I know it's frequent to feel guilty and wonder "what if I had done things differently, would my pet still be alive?"
Any thoughts? Have you ever felt something like this?