Hi Brian, Just been in tears reading about your beautiful Jesse as your story is so similar to mine. Today is exactly 12 weeks since we had to have our Jim put to sleep. He was a rescue, we adopted him at 4 months old and were so very lucky to have him for 17 years. My husband ( also called Brian ), and I never had kids, and even though we`ve had dogs before who we loved so much, there was just this instant bond with Jim. He was the most gentle, kind and loving dog - more like a little person really. We had a great life with him, he was diagnosed with a liver tumour over 3 years ago, but with the medication he was on for the rest of his life, you really wouldn`t think anything was wrong with him.
However during his last 6 months he really started to decline - mobility problems, loss of appetite, we were giving him steak, lamb, basically we tried everything to get him to eat.
We both knew what eventually was going to happen, but he was still having more good days than bad. Then on 13th Dec last year, he deteriorated so rapidly over a few hours, we had no choice but to let him go - the hardest thing I`ve ever had to do
We miss him so much, still cry most days - I still expect to see him sitting on the sofa, or asleep in his basket next to our bed when we wake up in the morning.
Like you, I still believe Jims spirit is still here with us, but it hurts so much that I can`t see him. Your Jesse reminds me of Jim - those big soulful eyes that just shine with so much love. We were so lucky to have these beautiful dogs in our lives